Does it really take all of that.....
I often wondered why did it toke people crying and screaming in church to leave feeling some kind of way. I didn't understand why it took all of that. It wasn't until I lived a little and went through various things in life and came to the "tired" point that I began to see why it took all of that.
Some people wonder around this earth searching, going from pillow to post, person to person trying to find a place or a person that will forgive them and love them regardless, in spit of and in addition to. I did this for many years. I was lacking a true meaning and sense of what love is and what it truly meant to forgive and be forgiven. Because of this, I became restless.
After years of hurting myself with drug usage, promiscuous sex, total neglect of my health among other things, I got feed up. I was hungry and thirsty for something that the world just wouldn't be able to give me. Sometimes, I even felt that I needed answers from those that hurt me. Besides, they owed me that much right? Wrong, because nine out of ten, they didn't even know the reasoning behind their actions. They may have had an idea, but at that time they didn't know that hurt was part of my purpose.
Going through life being rebellious because of my experiences, I reached my end. I became tired of the vicious cycle that wasn't leading me no where. It was like I would repeatedly do drugs, looking for a different result. Even when I was violating my body, I was looking for a man to pop up one day and treat me differently than I had presented myself to him.
My day for being ready to try something different had finally come, and boy was I happy. I cried out to the Lord, and he heard me, delivered me, and revealed to me my purpose. At last, my soul had found what it was looking for. God wrapped His unfailing love and kindness around me.
Today, many people that have experienced things such as child molestation, rape, drug addiction, teen pregnancy, neglect and many other things, are prisoners of their own sins. We hold ourselves hostage to the things that have been done to us. We some how blame ourselves and hold an unforgiving heart towards ourselves when it wasn't our fault but just our purpose. We are chained to addictions, fears, and generational curses. Some are oppressed and depressed with no hope.
I chose not to live that way anymore. I know that God loves me and God is love so I find my hope in Him. No longer will I allow myself to be bound by the things that tried to kill me. I would rather expose those demonic spirits for what they are, bound up every generational curse and spirit of depression and loose hope, forgiveness, liberty, and happiness. Not only in my life, but most importantly into the lives of God's people everywhere that don't think that a life without pain is possible. IT IS!
So today, I ask you to begin to cry out to the Lord. Allow Him to deliver you and begin the healing process in you. He hears you and yes, He knows but He is waiting on your willingness. Willingness to a. SUBMIT and b. BE A VESSEL.
As stated in Psalms 107:14 "Oh! Give thanks to the Lord for His unfailing love; Love that brings us out of darkness and deepest gloom and breaks away our chains." Began to bless the Lord for how He carried you through these storms and built you to be of a service to others like you.
God loves you and is there waiting with open arms. It is not in His plan for you to be bound by the very things that haunt your dreams. It is in His plan to loose you so that you will be free and witness to others that just what God did for me, He'll do the same thing for you! God Bless
Some people wonder around this earth searching, going from pillow to post, person to person trying to find a place or a person that will forgive them and love them regardless, in spit of and in addition to. I did this for many years. I was lacking a true meaning and sense of what love is and what it truly meant to forgive and be forgiven. Because of this, I became restless.
After years of hurting myself with drug usage, promiscuous sex, total neglect of my health among other things, I got feed up. I was hungry and thirsty for something that the world just wouldn't be able to give me. Sometimes, I even felt that I needed answers from those that hurt me. Besides, they owed me that much right? Wrong, because nine out of ten, they didn't even know the reasoning behind their actions. They may have had an idea, but at that time they didn't know that hurt was part of my purpose.
Going through life being rebellious because of my experiences, I reached my end. I became tired of the vicious cycle that wasn't leading me no where. It was like I would repeatedly do drugs, looking for a different result. Even when I was violating my body, I was looking for a man to pop up one day and treat me differently than I had presented myself to him.
My day for being ready to try something different had finally come, and boy was I happy. I cried out to the Lord, and he heard me, delivered me, and revealed to me my purpose. At last, my soul had found what it was looking for. God wrapped His unfailing love and kindness around me.
Today, many people that have experienced things such as child molestation, rape, drug addiction, teen pregnancy, neglect and many other things, are prisoners of their own sins. We hold ourselves hostage to the things that have been done to us. We some how blame ourselves and hold an unforgiving heart towards ourselves when it wasn't our fault but just our purpose. We are chained to addictions, fears, and generational curses. Some are oppressed and depressed with no hope.
I chose not to live that way anymore. I know that God loves me and God is love so I find my hope in Him. No longer will I allow myself to be bound by the things that tried to kill me. I would rather expose those demonic spirits for what they are, bound up every generational curse and spirit of depression and loose hope, forgiveness, liberty, and happiness. Not only in my life, but most importantly into the lives of God's people everywhere that don't think that a life without pain is possible. IT IS!
So today, I ask you to begin to cry out to the Lord. Allow Him to deliver you and begin the healing process in you. He hears you and yes, He knows but He is waiting on your willingness. Willingness to a. SUBMIT and b. BE A VESSEL.
As stated in Psalms 107:14 "Oh! Give thanks to the Lord for His unfailing love; Love that brings us out of darkness and deepest gloom and breaks away our chains." Began to bless the Lord for how He carried you through these storms and built you to be of a service to others like you.
God loves you and is there waiting with open arms. It is not in His plan for you to be bound by the very things that haunt your dreams. It is in His plan to loose you so that you will be free and witness to others that just what God did for me, He'll do the same thing for you! God Bless
you inspire me. I am currently going through this now. looking for love behind crevaces of every corner and hurting people who actually try to love me. I am consumed with dwelling on the past and this post was most needed. I have subscribed to your posts because they hold meaning and help me in my life. stay beautiful and thank you for your words they mean soo much to me
ReplyDeleteErin... I am glad that you have been able to connect with me. Actually, our hearts are connected. I am glad that I have been able to show you that God has someone out there that can relate to you, someone that knows what you are feeling because I have been there, done that and God brought me through it. I say this to you Erin, allow God to love on you and allow him to free you from yourself and your past. Cry out to God with all your might and with the sincerity of your heart and He will hear you. I am here for you but most importantly, God is here to save and heal you! Be Blessed. Love ya!
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