I GOT THIS....NOT!!!

Life is very frustrating and it is full of temptations. I have dealt with and healed from some very disturbing things in my life. My healing process does not exclude me from continuous fighting the demons that once haunted me on a regular bases. I still come across days when I feel that it was much easier to handle death in my family, finding out about a serious illness, being depressed, or even missing my son with the use of some kind of drugs. I still have nightmares about being molested. I still wake up in tears from seeing my rapist face in my sleep.
So from those things, I am tempted to turn around a lot of times, but I am often reminded that I serve a God that takes care of me. In Galatians 5:16, I am reminded to live in the Holy Spirit. That means that I have a God to lean on and as long as I live in the Holy Spirit, there are things that I don't have to deal with and go through alone. I have come to believe that if I am not living in the Holy Spirit and I live in my own will, I get frustrated really quick.
 When that happens it shows that I am not relying on God to handle the situation or to carry me through that trial and test. My frustration tells God that I think, for some reason, that I am able to handle it on my own. The arrogant statement, " I got this" comes to mind. Frustration and falling into temptation tells God that I run this not you. I am sorry to bust a lot of bubbles today, but we are not God! We can't do the things that only the Holy Spirit can do. If that was the case, a lot of us would not have gone through the process to get where we are today. We would have taken the easy way out.
Living in the Holy Spirit is very essential to the healing and deliverance process for everyone. It is the Holy Spirit that will lead and guide us on the righteous path. It is the Holy Spirit that will keep your mind when the enemy tries to tell you that because someone violated your body, or your mind , your not worth anything. It is the Holy Spirit that will carry you through when you think that sex will make you feel wanted. The Holy Spirit will build you up.
The best thing that I have found out since I have been saved is that when I did turn my will and my life over to God, that wasn't it for me. I didn't go to God, get saved and God walked away from me. He didn't tell me to take the lead from there but He told me that He will NEVER leave me. The verse in Galatians didn't tell me to take complete control of my life but it told me to live. It told me to live in the Holy Spirit and with the help of the Holy Spirit, I don't have to indulge in the things of the flesh. That says that the Holy Spirit will help me fight against my flesh.
Today, I speak to everyone regardless of what you have been through, you don't have to continue to go through anything else alone. There is a God that sits high and looks low. He will save you and will be with you until the end of time. Trust Him and He will see you through. Everyday will not be a easy day, but it is easier to be connected with a source that lightens your load and carry you through. Lean not to your own understanding because what the enemy means for evil, God will turn it around for your good. I am a witness of that. I never thought that I would ever move past the pain of all that I have seen, experienced and even done my self. BUT FOR THE GRACE OF GOD! I encourage you today to seek the Lord, not only acknowledge Him as your Savior but allow Him to save you! God Bless!