What does it really matter?

Hey to all my readers.
        First, let me introduced myself. My name is Evang. Candace. I am the author of  "Broken and Rebuilt for the Kingdom", a book that will be hitting the shelves very soon. I am starting this blog to give you a little bit about me before hand. Not only do I want to give you some of me, but I would like to get to know you as well.
        "Broken and Rebuilt for the Kingdom" deals with real life pain that many people do not like to talk about. I talk about my life as I dealt with child molestation, rape, promiscuous activity, teen pregnancy, alcohol and drug abuse, domestic violence and also growing up in a house divided. These are issues that most people find themselves " sweeping under the rug" and pretending that (a) these things don't exist or (b) they have never experienced any of these things. Sometimes both scenarios pertain to one individual.
         There are many things that can be taken from the book. The main message that I pray people receive is just knowing that there is a God that sits high and looks low. God has carry me through every horrifying experience in my life. I have come to realize that without God, I would have been dead long time ago either by the hands of someone or by my own.
       For the first eleven years of my life, things were done to my body sexually that gave me the impression that anything can be done to me and it would be acceptable. "What does it really?" It didn't matter. Who cared if at the age of three a grown man was climbing on top of me? Apparently, I felt like no one care because I didn't have the confidence to open my mouth and tell someone.
    Those events just show how easy it is for a domino affect to take place. I say that because sex became a major part of my life. Being molested again by another family member,again  by another man and then becoming pregnant from an act of rape took me into a life of promiscuous activity covered by drug usage. Rape didn't stop there, multiple rapes had me tangled in a place where I had no self worth at all. I felt like to marry a man that would violently beat on me would be what I deserved. What does it really matter?
    The only thing that I can look back and be grateful for today is the fact that God never left me alone. I may have left Him several times, but He was there waiting patiently. I often thought that I didn't have a purpose in life. Little did I know, at that time I was going through my process so that my purpose could be revealed.
    Today, I know that my purpose involves every woman that I come across that is asking themselves "What does it really matter?" I know that everything that I have been through in my life was never about me. but it was about having the experience to help someone else through what they may look at as a very impossible situation to make it through. My life is about being transparent enough so that other women that is going through or have gone these things can see the realness of God, who He is and how He brought me through. People will be encouraged and find strength in the message. Child molestation, rape, along with all these other terrible things will no longer be swept under the rug. Woman (and in some cases men as well) is began to say to themselves that it, their lives, really do matter.